Bombed Out….

Ok so today was a complete bomb, woke up with a shitty head but still went into college to do some book work and add last write ups to the blog. Get there too find I’ve left my iPad at home with all my notes, dammit, decide to carry on with other work so go to grab hard drive out of bag and it’s sitting at home from when downloading some movies to flatemates sons tablet, great. So it gets better, well no my model was not available as her best friends mother passed away early this week and the funeral is now tomorrow so she cannot be there then either. Well at least I managed too make sure one of my models will be there, another I know has not been well and I hope she can make it too, if not well then I might just have to bring the ‘priest’ back and tie him up for a few shots in a leather harness as well haha. Ah all good in the end just the way the cookie crumbles in the end and you either live with it or lump it.
So tomorrow’s session will have too do the job right, make sure the lighting is correct the background is lit up so the subject stands out adding depth too the image I am aiming for mostly close up shots so that I can just concentrate on certain areas of the body and get back into my comfort shooting space. I seem too work best close up so that’s what I’m going to get back too and add that element back into my work and see the results, I have only a few weeks left and then it’s due so gotta pull finger out and get it done. I didn’t manage too shoot the skeleton yet so I might have too do that during the next week somehow, hopefully 2nd year aren’t using the studio space yet with their new briefs as a lot of it for them this time is studio work. Of course I know that when I add a skeleton to the images I will get asked why I have done it, I guess I am not allowed to answer because I wanted too as I thought it would be an interesting concept and make for an image that again leaves the viewer something to question. It’s hard too explain why I want too do any of my images when I’m not loading them up with political, social or even religious reasons but reasons that are as I have already put forth, I want too create these images because I can, I have the ability too so why shouldn’t I use it and create something? Even if it does leave the critics asking questions that I don’t have the answers that they are looking for, of course I could always just smile and nod my head in agreement, that seems too work on occasion.
I not much in the art speak and critiquing part of it as much as the others, I struggle compared too them, they seem too breeze through the stuff while it bounces in and around my head and makes it difficult for me to make a lot of sense out of it. I try and won’t give in so either I learn or I don’t, but that’s not the option so learning is the only way, well next to dazzle them with brilliance or baffle with bullshit. But even that can only get you so far before the shine wears off.